I'd like to run and leave this behind...

That day continues to replay in my mind over and over again like a nightmare and I keep waiting to wake up. How am I making it through each day as if nothing has happend? After all those months of planning and anticipation... where is my baby? I go days without crying and can't help but feel that I have become numb and empty in order to get by. I am forced to keep going because this life won't stop for anyone to fall apart. I'd like to run and leave this behind... but now it is part of my life.